Paradigm

With the quiet of late from the usual suspects, I'm missing the community and conversation that somehow materializes among the interwebs. It's been quieter for months, I think, though there was a more active patch in there, which was fun.

Granted, my activities have moved a bit away from socializing, due to a growing tiredness - just the crud; a bevy of vague and not-so-vague complaints that wear me down without keeping me in bed, though sometime I will just take a day off of work for the extra rest. Sick building syndrome may also be to blame: I've felt more lousy more often at this job than any other - and I ride my bike to work a lot, which theoretically should make my constitution closer to that of an equine. (Yes, I'm referring to the phrase "healthy as a horse".) This is under investigation. Nonetheless - haven't been out as much, haven't seen friends as much, haven't done a group ride in a couple months.

My thoughts often turn toward an analysis of trying to find a balance. Some days it's as though I'm the only one who's discovered that a lack of happiness is likely attributable to an imbalance. I've developed a language and tend to work at a generalized level of situational evaluation, and abruptly am speaking a language that's only familiar to sociologists. Expectations, attachments, lack of empathy, poor communication... I see perceived problems in the most general terms; only the specific circumstances seem to vary.

I can evaluate even that tendency. People have a tough time zooming out because they're too attached; re-evaluate and you may have to loose your position; doing that can threaten a person's ego and sense of identity.

I can't be the only one out there developing a sense of balance (which I now amusedly note I have not addressed), but perhaps I'm the only one with this approach to the bumps in the road.