I have a thought on how to describe, at least in part, what happened two years ago. Suddenly I began experiencing what I was experiencing, and not some mind-mediated mixture of what I was experiencing and what I was expecting to experience. Suddenly divorced from any grasp of expectation, the whole world becomes as new, and I found that things aren't at all as they had seemed, as I had expected them to be.
Not that I can remember the train of thought that led me to finding those words, only that I was walking to the train.
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